Especially for you

Hey, you, I know you can not hear me

nor can you see me...

But you can feel me, huhm ? ^_^

I hope, no, I really hope so.

Open your card, laugh, you know, it does not fill me with tears, like I had thought.

It was warm, I know you put much love into it. I know....

"For a brief, shining moment you brought me warmth and peace at heart, which I will never forget."

The beauty in the moments we shared, right ? Yes it carries with me back home, possibility until the very later passage of my life.

I kept my promise, I did not open it before Christmas time.

I kept my promise, to move on and be happy...

Yet, last night, some how tears managed to shrouded my heart, and my eyes became watery for some reason.

I do not miss you, I am alright.

I am fine by my own.

This is nothing to be sadden about, we both agreed on it.

But you know,

it is still you, out of billions people in the world, be the first to said I am special.

Thank you, if I can be special, so are you.

Love, that's the forbidden word you never said once. That's also some sort of feeling I did not shared with you.

We comfort each other, tenderly but not "love", right ?

I've graduated, and I've learnt how to be selfish. I won't ask for your forgiveness because that was solemnly my own will.

Thank you for all this time.

This Christmas, it was different. I hope you would think of me, even for a second of your life as you read the card I left back at your place.

I know it was cheap

But it was priceless.

I will miss you.

Christmas for everyone, warm wishes for you and family.

my dearest.

24/12